I remember walking down the hall feeling completely defeated. I felt worthless and there was nothing I could do about it. What had been was done there was no reversing it, nothing could change it. When I got home I laid across my bed and tears just flowed. I wanted to be shut off from the world. I had reached my lowest point. My personal life was in shambles. All I had was broken pieces that somehow needed to be put back together.
My 5 year relationship was coming to a crash and burn. We were on two different pages in life. Two people walking down two different paths yet trying to walk together presents it's challenges. We had two different meanings for loyalty and faithfulness. Things weren't the same anymore. Everything was different.
My family seemed like it was falling a part with the threat of divorce. It seemed like everyone who was married was on the brinks of destruction. I was so hurt and angry with some of the decisions. I stopped talking to close family members.
Family members were facing life threatening health problems. My mother was in and out of the hospital with heart issues. The doctors told her there was nothing they could do for her but hope she got to the hospital in time. My brother was diagnosed with cancer and given 6-8 months to live. My uncle was recovering from 4 massive heart attacks.
This only touches the surface of things that were going on during that time frame. Through all the craziness that was raging in life there was only one that could bring peace and turn it all around...God. I had to ask him for forgiveness, I had to ask him to help me forgive, I had to ask Him to show me how to love and not judge. I had to depend on him to give me strength, I had to believe in his Word that he would indeed be my comforter. I had to believe Him to be a healer, a restorer and a mender of broken hearts. Some things I may not ever understand but I've learned to trust God's will.
If you're going through know that there is nothing that God can't solve. Be mindful He may not always solve it the way you think it should be solved. As you wait He will give you peace that passes all understanding. Even in the midst of the storms of life He can calm your mind. Know that He is a Sovereign God with all power in His hands. Trust God.
Everybody that smiles in your face, does a kind deed or provides a good time is not always out for your best interest. While their acts of deception lead you to believe that they have love for you their intent is motivated by selfishness. Love is not self seeking but is genuinely concerned with the well being of other people.
The people that pretend to love you are nice to you as long as they are getting their way but the moment a problem arises their fear of being deprived of what they desire will turn into a rage. They seek self satisfaction at all cost. They want what they want when they want it and it doesn't matter who they hurt, it doesn't matter what conflict they cause because it's all about them. If they don't get exactly what they're after they will settle for seeing you suffer. Out of spite they become harmful, they want to annoy you, frustrate you or humiliate you.
This type of person is dangerous. Their controlling spirit can ruin your life if you let them. They will influence you to make decisions that are contrary to what's best for you. It's alarming because they can be so cunning and manipulative you don't even know what is happening. If you're not careful you'll be trapped in their web facing a bite of poisonous venom.
Be watchful of the company you keep. Be careful of those you allow to impact your life. Guard your heart and your mind make sure the people who surround you have your best interest.
Camille Aiko is dedicated to transforming lives spiritually, mentally, physically and financially through the Word of God and practical life principles. It is her mission to pour into the lives of others to motivate them to greatness!
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“Love is that condition in the human spirit so profound that it allows me to survive, and better than that, to thrive with passion, compassion, and style.” Maya Angelou
"Like an unchecked cancer, hate corrodes the personality and eats away its vital unity. Hate destroys a man's sense of values and his objectivity. It causes him to describe the beautiful as ugly and the ugly as beautiful, and to confuse the true with the false and the false with the true."