Dear Love, I Miss You

What’s going on? Something doesn’t feel right. I call but you don’t answer. You don’t come around like you use to. When we are together you seem so distant. I miss you. I miss spending the day with you. I miss taking walks and talking to you. I don’t understand how you can love me so much and then suddenly detach yourself from me. I remember when you told me I captured your heart and how much your life had changed for the better because you let me in. I just want things to be the way they used to be.

You longed to be with me, you were excited to see me, you were happy just to be in my presence. You were always there for me, all I had to do was say the word and you would be eager to please me but now it seems you only come around when you need me.  After all I have done for you; after all of my kept promises you still choose to treat me so bad. It’s crazy, but regardless of how you treat me I will always remain faithful to you. I love you.

Remember when the only thing you wanted was me, when you had zeal to see me. We spent hours together saying everything and nothing at the same time. You told me that you couldn’t live without me. You told me you wanted to dedicate the rest of your life to me. You told me I was everything you needed. Why is it that the time we spend now is scarce and sporadic?

You seem so busy “working”. You say you’re doing it for me, but if it’s for me why do you complain about it? Why do you seem so stressed out, burnt out or do it half heartedly? And why work for me but never want to spend any quality time with me so we can reap the benefits together? You seem happier when you’re with everyone and anyone else but me.

If I captured your heart how is it that you slipped away? Who or what stepped in that has made you uninterested? You’re not who you used to be. If I ask you about it, you tell me things are fine, you still love me and would do anything for me. But your actions and words don’t add up.

I wish I still had your heart. I wish you loved me with all of your heart, mind, and soul.  I wish you put me first. Every day a tear rolls down my cheek as I whisper softly...”please, don’t forget about me”.

Maybe one day I can capture your heart again. Until then I’ll be waiting with open arms.

Sincerely,

God

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